Yeah there is some sadness, Ofcourse, but I have to make the most of it.

We have spoken again and has said she can’t make it for my birthday, basicly I think it’s over.

She has said she is in love with me but she struggles. She isn’t sure if there is a future. She really wants it to work but is torn, she doesn’t understand why she can’t make more effort.

I just said to her ” then why did you let me come up, why say you are in it and love me etc” so that annoys me a little bit.