Dear Anita,

I do not know how to thank you for the time you put into writing to me.

Do you know – I was talking about the ex boyfriend and the “partner” sorry for confusing you. The last number 6-13 is my current “partner” – as I have never really spoken about my ex boyfriends behaviour I though I would hav included that in the picture.

I imagine both has similar traits – one more obvious than the other. See my “current” partner is older and have more likable traits. I would consider that as his weak side – and it only shows up here and there. I wonder then if it is his way or the highway – maybe that’s why I feel quite lonely and longing to be free. I like him so much more on a distance.

I can not remember the last time I did not have drama in my life – it almost feel like a drug that’s going out from the system.

I met a friend yesterday and she said that I was talking about me having troubles in the relationship already 2 years ago.
What was I waiting to change. Or was I waiting for me to change. I just made it harder by staying. So much harder.

I still want him to call, I still want him to care. I still want him to be someone I could lean on and be with. Is that wrong of me.

I am far from perfect and I know that. But I am somehow tired thinking I am broken and need someone to value me. Maybe for the wrong reasons.

I regret not writing dairy through these 3 years – so I could remember how I been feeling. I guess other people can tell me how I’ve been feeling.

Best wishes,

Ann