Thank you for your advice.

I do believe it’s time to find a therapist, so I will look around.

I think I needed to hear that I don’t have to put much pressure on myself. I’m really an introvert at heart and it’s difficult for me to make friends. I would like somebody to talk to and hang out with (besides my boyfriend), but I think I’m putting too much pressure on myself and trying to force it.

I like the idea of visiting a new place a week. I work long hours during the weekday, so if I try something on the weekend mid-afternoon (by myself) then I would feel much safer. I just know dealing with this paranoia will be tough, but maybe exposing myself would be helpful.

I joined Meetup in the past, but I’m weary of it. Again, I’m an introvert and paranoid, so it makes me feel nervous to think of going to these group meet ups.