Hello everyone and thanks for reading my first post. I am 29 and have 2 little children. More then 2 years ago I met a man through mutual friends, we had a very strong connection from the start but both obviously caried our past within this new relationship, he was a virgin with no prevous partners and has been dealing with depression due to unemplyment . I just ended my 10 marriage in a bad way. I guess we were both lonely and tired of it. Also we are both foreigners in this country, which means I have no family and on only one friend here. Only weeks after meeting I became pregnant which obviously caused huge stress for us and has put our relationship under a big strain. Our relationship has been going on and off constanly since and was never really stable or let me to feel that he was commited to me (us). Also I already a had a daughter from my marriage which he loves and she loves him too. Despite all the ongoing issues he was always around helping with the kids when I needed it. We both love each other dearly and want nothing more than end this madness and be together properly but somehow we both can’t seem to move on and always keep falling back into the old habits and argue about nothing really. He’s been home to his mum recently for several weeks and when he came back siad for the first time that he is now ready to spend hs life with me and for us to get married. But nothing has followed those words since, instead I have been nagging him constanly with my old habits trying almost desperately to get him to talk and then he rather closes up completely which leads to him leave my place or the situation and me with more questions and frustration. I am right now feeling very low and sad, I love him and I wanted us to be married since we had our son. I felt happy that he finally managed to sort out his issue with his mum which are cultural and prevented him from commiting to us previously. On good days when all is well between us I feel so happy and wish that it should be like this forever. But once we argue and I realize that there is hardly any communication possible between us I feel so frustrated and wonder if we truely have any future as a family…!? I’m so confused and heartbroken, not sure if it is really my fault, do I pressurise him too much with questions? I know I lack patience but where is the balance? All I wanted to know where I stand with my kids, I told him that if he wanted us to be married and a family he has to improve also and talk to me. Just to come back from a trip home and say ” I want to marry you” and expect me to have no questions about it is rather unrealistic I think. I guess I have to let go and keep breathing. Any words of advice are greatly appreciated, as you can tell I am confused and mentally and emotionally messed up right now. Thanks to you all. Anne