I see your point Jeff thank you. But the thing is this time is not really about me ” going for it” because I was refused entry once at the border, I can not just go for it, I need a job offer or something to be able to enter the states, and since I don’t have a job right now in Canada either, they won’t let me in as a visitor either. So that is why I am saying, the signs are there but I am lost in what to do, because the only way I can go is to have an offer over there. So yes you might be right that I can’t just sit and things fall into my lap, that is why I am trying to figure out what to do, as far as job goes I am applying everyday, and seems like it has been blocked, absolutely nothing is happening. The criteria is a good idea, I might be looking in the wrong places. Usually when I want to move or do something, I make it happen no matter what, that is why I went for it for nyc last time, even though I didn’t have proper documents, and of course it was a mistake cause now I made my situation harder. At first I thought ok maybe I am not suppose to move to NYC, the guy I fell for basically disappeared as well right after the plan fell apart, and broke my heart, on top of everything, I am wondering why that happened on top of it. All of this was too much, but the signs are telling me to go, I’m starting to think maybe the signs don’t mean anything? I really don’t know what to do right now other than wait. I am basically surrendering, but needing to support myself and need a job asap is keeping me from relaxing and that might be the case for blocking the energy.
Thanks again