I wasn’t going to say anything at first, but I have to echo Matt’s sentiments; beauty is skin deep and impermanent. Observe, appreciate, and let go. The slope towards obsession, fantasy, and idealizing is very slippery. To go back, rehash, revisit, and review who was, what was, how was, why was is a futile endeavor that will take you no where and only keep you trapped in your mind going around in circles and ultimately losing touch with reality. I can’t condone the questions.