Hello – I clicked on your topic because I too have felt this way. it’s nice to hear someone else verbalize this inner dialogue.

I am either too sensitive to life’s subtle nuances and internalize everything as my fault, or I am not sensitve enough and just blurt my emotions on to others, unintentionally. My pre-sleep moments are spent playing back these events and … well, then I don’t like myself very much. And then I worry that I won’t be liked very much, or that I won’t be respected for my good contributions. Sleep becomes a blissful momentary escape. And then depression follows.

Perhaps, I should consider that these feelings occur when I have done something on the spur of the moment and without thought about how my action elementally goes against my own grain. I am reminded of this when the self talk starts. And that will go on for hours, days, and weeks even! It just doesn’t pay to be spontaneous when your conscience haunts you so. LOL

I hope you soon get your “monkey mind” to be still so you can find peace.