Thanks for the tip Anita.It seems to be working.I am trying to accept these as powerless thoughts.My brain is caught up with another issue.I have a best friend here in vegas.I already told you about her that we bought houses exactly opposite to each other.Lets call her A.I have noticed that A’s other friends dont give me a friendly vibe at.Even when i meet them they keep to talking to A and ignoring me.I already told you about one of A’s friendly already.She literally uses/talks to me only when A is not available.I faced similar vibe with another A’s friend.She used to literally ignore me when we met.Later on i got to know from other people that she was jealous of our friendship.She spread rumorus about me that took toll on me.She even deleted my number. I didnt say anything to her at all.She just deleted my number out of no where.I ignored her.Now comes a third friend.Now my best friend A  started talking to a new friend.Lets call her C.A invites me to her home whenever C comes over.I have noticed the same thing.I feel like she ignores me to certain extent.I feel like she is trying to get closer to A.When  i met C for the first time.She invited me to her halloween party.It was like two weeks back.Now C invited A through a message.I didnt get the invite at all.Now i dont know why.I feel so bad.What is point of telling me to come to her party when there is no intention of inviting me at all.I just cant stop thinking about this shit.I wanna let it go.I always try being friendly with A’s friends.But why do i get this vibe all the time.

You think i should to A about this and tell her not to call me when her friends come over.

Hey Anita.I used to be introverted and i used to feel ignored by people.I always used to think that since i am introverted so people talk less to me.I never felt bad about it.I always wanted to change that habit of mine.Since last year i started talking to people by being more friendly with them.I started inviting people to my home.I am doing my bit.I feel like my friend A takes more time than me to open up with people.My husband and her husband play badminton together with some other indians.My husband is more extroverted than A’s husband.But still people talk to A’s husband  and they get invited to thier homes.I asked the same thing to my husband he told me that may be we dont belong the same caste as them so we dont get invited. I seriously dont understand why people always think about caste even after coming this far(US).I used to always used to think that may be thats my problem.This time i dont feel like that.I am putting the efforts to talk to people.But still getting ignored.

Yeah thats right!!I am feeling bit better now.I cannot control how other people think.I am trying to let it go!!

I was feeling better until A’s friend C posted pictures online.That triggered me again.Whats is the need of calling me to the halloween party when there is no intention of inviting me.She invited A’s other friends.Why am i treated like shit by A’s friends.I feel like cutting ties off with my best friend that is A.This is the third friend of A who is treating me like shit.I want to stop making friends.

I did tell A about her friends ignoring me. She told me that’s how they are . She know the fact that one of her friend calls me when only needed. I did  tell her about the other friend ignoring me in the beginning. She told me to give her another chance. I got the same bad vibe from her but still i continued for the sake of A. Then after some time she bitched about me and A to other people. That’s when she stopped talking to her. And now i get the same vibe from C.I don’t want to continue this time. So i want to cut off with C right now.

Okay. I will do that. I am at stage in life where I don’t want fake/forced friendships. I will communicate that to A.I don’t know how she is gonna react.