Elle, this was actually the first time she stopped talking to me. Previously, no matter how much she was hurt, she never cut contact or said even a word against me (even now, she didn’t other than “you’re playing with my emotions”… the only thing she ever said to this day). Let me tell exactly what was the last fight we had (not even a fight; it was one-sided with me being the foul-mouthed aggressor).

Jerry – Admit it, you have romantic feelings for me.
Me – No, I don’t. I consider you my sister.
Jerry – The kind of things you’ve been saying to me, does one say to family? Do you keep saying “you’re always in my heart, you’re my dearest parents” to your parents, for example?
Me – Let’s leave my parents out of this, please.
Jerry – Then why do you keep dragging my cousin brother into this topic?
Me – Did I ever insult your dear cousin? If you want to abuse my parents, don’t worry; my mother is already suffering from a disease that might cause her death in a few years. You’ll get your wish sooner than you expect. Kindly shut your filthy mouth now; if you want my loved ones to die of c@nc3r, go wish for it alone and not in front of me. Whatever ill you are wishing, may you bear the fruits of it. May your tongue rot for wishing them ill. My fault to love a *censored* like you. Goodbye!

And after this, she sent me this message via someone – “Please tell him if possible that I never wished ill for his parents or family. I thought my message was clear, but still sorry if he felt bad. Though he hurt me with the bad words he used, I’ll forever pray for him and wish him well.”

It hurt me a lot to rewrite that message. But I cut nothing out. I just want to show, how extreme and uncalled for my reaction was when she said nothing at all to warrant such a response. And this happened for almost the 1000th time by now. I treat even other people in this manner at times. It’s a psychological problem of mine, and I hurt innocent people and loved ones due to it. I’m not exaggerating when I say there isn’t a girl like her in this universe, to put up with my vicious behaviour and still love and respect me so much.

Thanks for your advice and good wishes. Means a lot to me. 🙂