I cannot think that much about myself, but thanks a lot Anita. I do hope I will be able to live up to that, at least. I know Jerry believes so too… otherwise she would not have put up with my deeds for so long. Even now, she did say she’s not ending our relation. I wish that along with our studies, I’ll be able to continue my effort to eliminate my negative qualities and change myself for the better. Only after I am able to earn the right to be with her again, and hopefully do these exams well, can I consider myself a hero in my own life.

Speaking of my grandmother, I was just thinking how my anger stems from being overprotected in childhood and I began feeling angry just seeing her eating something. Thoughts like, “yeah keep eating while here my life is getting ruined due to what I was taught” kept popping up. I really don’t like being like this either.