I know. If it was indeed just brotherly feelings on my part, I doubt the possessiveness would’ve reached this level seeing her with her own blood brother. I should’ve heeded the signs and accepted the truth right then. But now I am not sure what to do. Even if she forgives me for the fight, she will definitely not accept my feelings; at least not anytime soon. She feels angry and betrayed that I loved her in this manner when she had considered me her brother. She is denying we ever shared anything special or personal in our bond, and seems to feel I misinterpreted some of her words/actions as romantic (which isn’t true). I had said that she doesn’t need to return my feelings and we can at least interact as good friends… but she didn’t reply. I don’t know how to proceed and rebuild our relation, if I’m blessed enough to be forgiven by her someday. Almost feels like a catch-22 situation or something. That still is a far way off as right now she’s completely aloof from me.

I had been hoping to send her a small message today expressing that I am remorseful and care for her, but in light of our friend’s accident, I don’t know if it’s right to do it as we’re all so worried for her.