Hello fireinthebelly,

I just registered for this website, after I read your story. It was courageous of you to post it. I am quite a bit older than you (60) but I can relate to your experiences. I think you have just had some bad luck. And you feel down after these relationships did not work out the way you had hoped. You obviously want to be close to someone and you have put yourself out there and made yourself vulnerable. The rejection you got just hurts. Of course! How else could it be? One thing I’d like to say is that while you may not be aware of it you are actually moving on. You can just try to give it time. Sometimes the moments in which you feel you can’t cope anymore occur just before relief from pain arrives in an unexpected way.