Dearest Anita,
Thank you for your welcome xx I have gone back and read the entries on the forum as well and I’m glad I did , for me it’s like a lesson in helping me to examine myself a bit more .
As for the psychotherapy, I had to stop for these past few weeks as it got a bit expensive but I am due to start again in a week and I am really looking forward to it. I have learned from the few sessions I have had is how much my childhood has impacted on my life , it has opened my eyes to my own behaviours and in some situations how much they mirror those of my mother and my father . And you too Anita, you help me see that as well . It was really food for thought .
I used to think of myself as a smart and capable individual who would run or stand up to any form of abuse in any relationship, and it does surprise me that I have endured it so long. Your last paragraph does make sense, and it makes me wonder when did I become desperate to be loved ?
Thanks again Anita ,
Peace and love
k8tyB