Anita,

What you say makes a lot of sense. That is kind of what I have been thinking, but the low self esteem part of me want her to give me encouragement. I resolved this morning to absolutely follow #2, then later today, she texted me and said that we could meet for dinner tonight to talk, if I wanted. I really don’t want to talk, unless there is something new to talk about. I thought about it for a while, then responded that I said everything that I needed to say on the phone yesterday, that I was more than happy to meet with her to talk if she wanted to discuss it further, or if she had other things to discuss. I also wished her a good day. She replied that she wanted to talk. So, we are meeting tonight over dinner.

Part of me is very scared that this could be a horrible experience, that she could ask for divorce, that I will become devastated. Part of me thinks that it would be a relief, though not what I want but finally a clear path forward. Part of me thinks that she could possibly open up some emotionally. Part of me thinks she will just tell me to back off. It is really hard to stay centered at the moment. I have to keep telling myself that I do not know what the meeting will entail and that I cannot fret about the future – but oh, those pesky thoughts of doom and demise keep creeping in.