Hi Spiritualgangster! Thank you. I’m not sure, I can’t make much sense of why this is happening. On the surface my life is good and I’m a fairly clear thinking person who values rationality the rest of the time. Sorry that probably doesn’t help!

Anita, thank you for reading my previous posts, I still don’t see how you worked out what I would call my ‘independent’ childhood/teenage years though! I left home at 17, but was eating alone, managing own homework from a few years before. I spent a long time angry at my parents for what I felt was neglect or at least lack of engagement, but my mum is very loving and I was always provided for…and I don’t believe I feel that towards them anymore. I would definitely agree I was unprepared and still am… And that I handle distressing situations like a small child.
When I get into that state of mind I am full of hate and my life is worthless, I just want the pain to stop.
I wish I knew what to do to address all this.

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