yup i have been to similar position . over the time i understood that its better to keep myself less attached to someone . because this shit hurt AF . I was honest and did whatever i can to make it right . still people deceived me. badluck for me but personally it made so strong emotionally . now i can acknowledge my feeling so deep that i understand why i am feeling happy . why i am sad . i can easily see horse shit . over all it made me wiser . i am 100 % sure if i find someone who is putting herself out for me i will totally respect it and i will stand right to her no matter what . because she would so much precious to me .it took whole lot of shit experience to get to her .