anita:

Innsbruck! I have not been around that side of Germany, my parents and I used to go for a skiing trip to this quaint little village called Filzmoos. The residents are as beautiful as the scenery and I would love to stay there, but if I were to go on a tourist visa I would only be able to stay for a short while.

Thank you for sharing about your relationship with your mother. I am currently in that position. I do feel a lot of love for my mother, since whenever she is not being manipulative and overly attached, she does everything she could for me. I could say that growing up and even now, my mother spoils me and still wouldn’t let me do things such as renewing passport or making a new bank account by myself since she worries I couldn’t.

I’m also getting the idea that she feels since she has sacrificed a lot of her youth for my sake, she wonders ‘why won’t you make sacrifices for me too?’ I don’t want to have to cut her off yet, although I have considered it many times. It just seems less stressful that way, but I don’t think I have the heart for it. All I want is for her to understand that while I love her more than anything in the world, I also need to find myself. If I were to tell my dad or any of her family about this, they would go off about how ‘ungrateful’ I am being.

Have you found that place, someplace you felt made your life worthwhile, anita? I’d like to know your experiences, too.