I can’t afford a therapist anita. I can only do meditation and do some research on my own. I don’t know why I’m always haunted with my fears from the past. I’m anxious everytime I enter a relationship and still anxious after being in a relationship. I always feel these adrenaline rush in my stomach everytime I see something or think about something. Like if I browse on my newsfeed on facebook and see my ex commented on something I feel an adrenaline rush or if I see his fb acc.I don’t know if I was excited or scared. I always feel that way in all my exes. I don’t stay much on Facebook anymore because everytime I see them or see someone that looked like them or someone who looked like their current gfs. I feel anxious.Im tired of feeling this way. I wanna feel good and happy.