Brie, I deeply apologize for the late reply.
1). It was because I was new and I was trying to find my way. I didn’t really know anything. The principal and the other teachers in my grade were very helpful, but I think I just go overloaded with information. I was trying to figure out who I was as a teacher. Also, my classroom management skills were crap and I was constantly worried about my students being in line and actually being able to teach anything. It just seemed like everything I was doing was wrong. And I was always getting flack from other teachers, parents and the principal just about every day.
2). The panic attacks happened when I was facing termination. My principal would talk to me either every day or every other day and it would always be about something that I wasn’t doing or something that a parent told her. Also, I kept hearing that “the 1st grade teachers are going to think you’re students are slow and misbehaved” “I don’t have problems from the other teachers’ students”. I was also accused of hitting children. It seemed like every time I talked to my principal, I would start crying.
3). You mean a solution to the stress and anxiety?
4). I don’t really have a problem with about my needs being met. I still live with my parents.
5). I’m working a retail job, but I’ve been applying to mostly administrative jobs or something that I don’t think would trigger my anxiety.
6). The same as number 5 as well as the whole teaching abroad thing
7). Do you mean getting a job or a new job. I work at Sears now, but I’m trying to find a better job.
8). I’ve mainly been looking South Korea
9). I’ve actually been applying to some jobs abroad and getting my paperwork in order.