Dear Nan:

His M.O., yes, I remember now. You did write about it, public places. I wish you this: to live authentically, to no longer have to pretend, to no longer live like a prisoner but to have dominion over your body, over your life, to be with whom you want to be with and not with whom you don’t want to be with.

I wish you stop living in fear of R-2’s reaction, from fearing that upon you leaving him he will commit suicide or somehow punish you severely, all hell will break loose. As if he has so much power. You referred to him in the original post on this thread as an old man, but from all your posts and threads, he is this threatening, scary person, maybe bigger than life and you walk on egg shells, plan and prepare and pretend, as if… he is a formidable SS guard and you are an emaciated war prisoner planning meticulously your escape.

This is still puzzling for me, your fear of him. Nothing of what you wrote about him makes the fear reasonable to me. I don’t see HOW he is as dangerous as you seem to believe that he is.

anita