at the start of the song acorns by the white stripes the narrative says that similar to a squirrel carrying nuts to its shelter before winter, if we break our problems into small parts we can carry them one at a time. if we try to carry all of out problems (and it sounds like you’re dealing with a lot) at the same time we will break under the weight of it all. i think it would be worth a shot for you to just remember that it’s one day at a time and that we can’t go leaps and bounds ahead of ourselves. we have t….no, YOU have to take small steps, maybe even baby steps towards overcoming your personal obstacles. Try to remember that you are doing the best you can. it might not be the best you want it to be, but if it was then that wouldn’t be you. if you’re using every tip, advice, mantra etc that you have in your metaphorical arsenal in order to help yourself, then that’s you doing the best you can so don’t be too hard on yourself. again try breaking your problems into smaller bits. try your best to pin point what about work makes you unsettled (the people, the work, the building, whatever really?). Don’t admit defeat and give up on yourself. you deserve to be happy and healthy and stable in all areas of your life. You’re doing fantastically by trying to gain help from this community and from your therapist.