Dear salseromario:

I have a very high sensitivity to sounds and am very familiar with the feeling of being driven insane by those sounds, people’s sounds. People screaming, the volume of voices.

What I found out about my own sensitivity are the following:

1. When I am already anxious everything sounds louder then when I am not anxious.

So I am thinking, now that you are in your highest anxiety, in trouble at work for exploding at students, sleeping so little, the sounds are likely to be even more bothersome. Do you think?

2. Some sounds bother me more than others because of the intent that I see in the making of the sound. For example nature sounds, birds, don’t bother me. On the other hand, a neighbor raising his voice playing with his kid or calling the dog bother me beause I believe the neighbor is ignoring the suffering he is causing me by being loud, is happy while I am suffering. I think this sensitity has to do with my childhood experiences.

I am wondering if you see an Intent in the students making those sounds, it triggering a childhood experience of some sort?

anita