Dude,

I know excatly what it feels like, I was much younger than you but I went through the same experience. To keep it short. you will need to wait untill your emotions settle down, if you cant focus on anything – fuck it – dont focus on anything, if you need some comfort from your loved ones get it, life feels like shit sometimes, and its ok – shit produces mangos in the end –

Anyway wait for your emotions to settle down and do whatever makes you feel better meanwhile – once they settled you wil see things clearly and you will know what to do – even if that means not knowing what to do.

My post is not going to help , but as an X muslim myself, I know the fucking society we live in gives you limited choices but since my last break up I got many oppurtunites , dont worry, and let all the emotional garbage settle then you will know excatly what to do.

Dont push or resist the emotions let them fucking be.

Yours