I am stating the facts:

I met this beautiful girl, totally opposite from the usually girl i go after. However, I am attracted to her energy.

We had a serious talk on one of the nights. I told her how i felt about her. She said, im a nice guy, descent guy and im a gentleman. I really dont like hearing that, the nice guy part. She said right now she does not feel for a romantic relationship because she just got out of one, she does not want to get married again. She says lets be friends and see where it goes. She does not like to rush things.

I love the relationship, because i told her i want a relationship that is open, honest and authentic. That is exactly what I have.

She has two kids, that i pick up every now and then and drop them at her home, we do groceries together, we go on dates together with the kids, picnic and such, she and I also started a business together. When we are alone together, i allow her to talk and I listen. I now want to just be intimate with her. I do express my feelings, im not afraid of that. I express them more written. However, I have alot of fears about intimacy from my last relationship that i personally need to work on. I guess performance anxieties.