I’d love to have a relationship with her, I just don’t think it would be right for her. 21 year relationship with a guy who was like me, she still loves him but she’s moving on and has been single a year and a half. I think she deserves to have a better guy then me tbh, I just wish we could hang out more often and i’ll do my best to always make sure she has an awesome time. From what I have gathered the guy is supposed to do all the work. I used to be so infatuated with her and everytime I saw her I was so happy, then the day I told her I lied to her about the pills happened, then it’s kinda went away…now I just care deeply about her, I don’t even get happy when I see her, I guess i’m way more comfortable now? I dunno what I want with her, just that I wish she cared for me like I care for her. I’m sure she knows I care for her, but who knows? I’ll never tell her, i’ll just let this play out and whatever happens happens.