Dear Birdyy,
you are not old for nothing, I was still dealing with depression in your age, but I knew I had to do something, no matter how small it seemed, because I did not want to spend my whole life in that miserable state. With small steps every day towards your healing and better living. You lack of confidence and I`ll be short in writing here, but I will give you these two articles, maybe they can help you somehow.
Actually, I`ll be glad if you find them helpful and implement those tips in your life.
Here they are: http://wanderside.com/how-i-overcame-depression-and-i-know-ill-never-go-back-there/
and http://justbereal.co.uk/feel-beautiful-about-your-body/
Big hug for you.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 