Thank you Anita for all your advise. I agree with you & I do know that I deserve answers. And I do know that I need to handle this whole situation with care & caution. I need to be patient, which is something that I struggle with. Something that as a human, I need to work on. I am trying. This is another reason why I haven’t reached out to him yet… because I knew/know that I may not be strong enough at this present time to be understanding & patient because I am hurting, as I know I am entitled too. But I also know that HE is hurting as well. I sit here and wonder all day, is he thinking about me? Does he miss me? Does he regret his decision or does he feel relieved that he ended it? It is like a never ending loop that I am on. It feels really good to be able to express all this to you… an outlet if you will for me to release all my fears & frustrations from an outside perspective oppose to people close to me. I cannot thank you enough!

Did you read my post earlier about the card I found? Do you believe in signs & divine intervention? Do you think it is smart to talk with my Deacon? Maybe there will be some clarity in there for me to help me understand where he is coming from.