thank you for your reply.. I am trying my best to get out right now. My husband I were just approved for an FHA loan and we are in the process of house hunting, however these things take quite some time especially living in NEW YORK. my mother is the one currently watching my 2 year old son and my daughter when she comes home from school. I know I have to leave.. I have to get my own home for my children. My daughter is 4 years old and said yesterday after my mom blew my head off: this house can never be happy! it disturbed me. My mother was a good mom until I got married when I was 27, soon after choose me as her scapegoat rather than my father.. my dad is not like that at all, he’s very laid back and relaxed but does drink a lot on the weekends … I just wish I knew for sure if she actually hates me because it sure feels that way.. it’s like walking on egg shells with her, I know she has a disease but I feel like some of it is just simply HER!