Dear Tessa,

I feel like answering to you as your painful obsessive thinking is something I have experimented from age 20 to 24.
I used to be a healthy girl and teenager, but after high school I put on some weight and that was the beginning of this obsessive thinking for me that resulted in 4 years of nightmare and putting more weight the more I was trying to actually lose it.
Now it’s been almost 3 years that I lost that weight (very slowly), and maintained it, but my biggest joy and relief is that I have lost the detrimental obsessive thinking that was leading me to obsessive eating.
My biggest help and realisation was to to stop pushing away my thought about food, to stop punishing me and depriving myself from food because of the obsessive thought (like “but I can’t eat, I am too fat already”, or my mum’s favourite but cruel “you don’t need to eat, you have stock”!!!). This was the non sense thinking that was putting me into the restricting/binging vicious and horrible circle.
I am so happy I am out of it! The longer you are, the harder it is to go out.
Let me know if you want to discuss more about it, I wish I had gotten help at that time!

Natacha