Hello everyone,
I am new to this site and would love to share an experience I am currently going through – maybe it will be a form of therapy. I broke up with my boyfriend this week – we have been together for a little over a year. The love was like a love I have never known before. I have learned that, we are never prepared for love. We never know when it’s coming and we never know how to deal with what will be planned. In my case, this was not a black and white relationship, it was extremely grey, extremely rocky. My partner was very distant from me after some time, very isolated, low, depressed, and silent. The silence is what killed me. I wanted to be supportive but how do you do that with no communication? When he pulled back, I tried harder. I didn’t allow for any space or distance, I kept trying to fill the silence. We aren’t prepared for anything. I left on Sunday. The past few days have knocked me on my feet but the only thing that gives me sanity is to think “wow, how nice it is to feel” has anyone felt like this before? You feel like something has been ripped out of you, completely knocks you down, but when you close your eyes and take a breath you know that you can feel, that you are alive. I am hoping and praying that this sense of clarity sticks with me. I am wondering if anyone has advice for this type of breakup – when there is still so much love from BOTH sides – just need space, distance, and time.
Thanks for reading my post <3