Dear Caroline:

I do hope you feel better soon. I am trying to understand the situation which is not clear to me. One contradiction is here, you wrote:

“I put in so much effort for him to prove I wanted this (a relationship with him)”

But then you also wrote:

“I tried to push him away, so many times, he kept convincing me to try”

– so which is it: did you do everything to show him you are serious about him as a boyfriend OR did you reject him repeatedly?

anita