Dear Tessa:

I think it will be getting better for you. It has for me, and I have been there. It will take time and work. The anxiety underneath disordered eating is expressing itself as it does now. As you do the work, you will have to deal with that underlying anxiety. It takes competent therapy to do so, a safe relationship (with the therapist) where to learn how to endure that anxiety without reacting to it by bingeing. Over time, the anxiety will weaken.

anita