Hi Anita, I dont think there is any improvement at all. For instance, just now i saw that my ex had changed his facebook status to be in a relationship with her…these are small stupid things i know. Both of us were never into social media at all..but she seems to use it and has obviously urged him to change it to make it all official..i know psychologically its an ownership badge, she wants everyone to know. I need to use facebook for my work and now get constant friend suggestions of this woman popping up on my phone (i have stopped it now). It has put me into total despair.

Also, I had tried to go on a dating site..a few times i have tried it and then removed myself because i get people saying hi but cant bring myself to answer, i dont want to.. i feel im forced by this awful situation and it makes me feel cheap and lonely..like i have to sleep with someone to get rid of it. but there is no way to meet guys here otherwise….

not so long ago, there was a new profile that had ‘liked’ me. it was clearly a fake profile..no photo, no information but the name and few details were creepy. This appeared after i had texted my ex following the visit to his gf saying i knew he had lied to me. It doesnt seem like he could do it but i could be wrong? could she have done it? who? It makes me feel sick to feel someone watching and laughing at me…for my failed life. I was really so happy when i was with him. Now, i had to take myself off again..i feel paranoid.

I also cant stop myself from trying to communicate and reason with him..the more i hear nothing the more i want to speak its killing me. i called him today about the dating website thing and i feel like such a loser..he wont reply. I know also that perhaps i just make him run more to her because he just wants to forget me. Why cant i?