@anita

Thank you! You are the only one who did not make me feel worse about myself. I thought a lot about my options and the choice I made. I may only be posting to seek validations on why I didn’t do anything wrong. Many people (from other forums) think I’m being stupid and made a mistake and will lose both my boyfriend and girl friend.

Although I feel terrible about the choice I made, I’d still do it if I had a second chance. Like you said, I felt some burden putting on me when she invited me to the party. I had imagined myself being at the party and I knew I would be thinking about my boyfriend instead of enjoying the party, let alone being her attention deflection.

I still feel like a jerk for bailing on my friend. But I’d regret it if I had chosen the other way.