Dear Jack:

The title of your thread is “Confused/scared about following my gut, going home”- often people, when distressed,  long for what they experienced as children, those hopes and dreams and sometimes-feelings of intoxicating safety that the child experienced in the surroundings of his childhood. Problem is, the way a child feels, the safety, euphoria of safety, of hopes and dreams, these cannot be duplicated in adulthood, not here, not there, not anywhere.

And so, a “gut feeling” may be misleading.

I hope you post again with more of your thoughts and feelings.

anita