I know I’m a very independent person so it’s hard for me to balance being with someone sometimes. I constantly keep thinking to myself all these different things and it’s almost as if I’m afraid to screw up. If I don’t think about him x number of times a day then I don’t love him or if I want to spend a day away from him I’m a horrible girlfriend. He doesn’t like to be alone whereas I do to an extent. So I guess the feeling of being “stuck” is a possibility. I just want to make it work with this guy. I don’t have this big reason as to why other than I love him and I just really want this to work.

Part of me is afraid that we won’t work out and I will waste my time if I don’t get out now. I feel like that’s anxiety because I honestly have no reason as to why we won’t work. Other than these really high expectations and this “movie” style outlook on love.