I know it might sound juvenile as I was very young at the time but I really did love him and want to be around him very very much. So when it ended I wasn’t alright for a very long time. I was hurting. I tried everything to stick on to my old university and tried everything that interested me but I never felt like I was getting anywhere closer to achieving what I wanted. All my career opportunities were lack luster and everyone around me at that uni understood when I wanted to leave and even said they wish they had thought of it too. But I keep second guessing myself as to whether subconsciously I couldn’t just resign myself to uni there because of him.

Unloaded on him” meant I took him for granted and put way too much pressure on the relationship. I had really bad days where I thought I deserved way more out of an education but everyone else was getting it when they hadn’t worked as hard.