I dont want to get behind, be the failure when everyone else is advancing in their careers, that is why I tried to pursue further studies that may help me catch up. But recently, upon reflecting about it, i pursued them without heart. Before I tried to pursue them, I wanted to go to business. We have a family business and even when I help there I feel ok. Maybe this is what I want, what I should do, to start a business. There I have time dor myself. It may be more of an unknown but I can do it at my own pace. Yet if I do it I need capital, and even now I barely contribute to the family, I earn less to nothing. And I still fear this choice of the road less taken. And If this is what I truly want or is it me finding another escape route.