Thank you Anita. I may move, but not right now. I have a great job and there are other things, obligations, that are holding me back. I may just move, but down the road. Right now, I can’t move period. I mean I can’t move. I am frozen, paralyzed, in so much pain that I don’t see how I can survive this and even if I can, I don’t know if I want to. I don’t live for her, I am very independent, but she was special and I simply cannot imagine my life without her. I am about to turn 40 and my life is over. I can’t go on anymore, at least not right now. She and everyone else says that things get better, time heals, and all that good stuff, but that’s not how things work in the real world. In the real world, pain doesn’t always go away. I’ve just started this journey and I don’t know which stage of grief I am currently in, but I simply cannot imagine my life going forward. I have nothing left. Nothing. Please forgive me for sounding so gloom, but I am covered in total darkness. This pain is the only thing I feel =(