Thank you Eliana. I agree with what your saying. I guess its just hard for me to express to the person I’m with how I feel at all times when I feel they aren’t trying to understand what I’m saying. I’m often just settling for that out of fear that  he will leave me if he doesn’t like what I have to say or compromise with me. I made a lot of sacrifices I felt that I truly didn’t want to but did to try to open my perspective and understand him and his needs… But at the same time he just didn’t really see it the way I did I suppose. He growing up actually had a great family background he told me and I got to meet his family. which is so odd because he has such a wonderful family and they are all so close. But for some reason when we were around his family he acted more cold and distant towards me which made me feel so alone and sad. Especially considering it was my first time meeting them. I tried to ask him why it seemed that way but all he said was sorry u felt that way, not my intention. So I mean what else could I say at that point? He also acted so…moody towards some of his family ( like his mother ) I mean she was very excited and talkative but I was kind of like…why now the first time I’m meeting them? you know what I mean? kind of hard to explain without the full story or knowing him I suppose. But I guess at the end of the day, its his own issue and I tried to help but there was only so much I could offer.  He is still trying to keep contact but I feel its out of his own selfishness. anyway I thank you for what you had to say so much! – Kylee