There were no ongoing lies, except to respond to me that he had never been married. He had invited me over to his home, but I never had the chance to go — and now I am not sure I would want to go or if the invitation still stands. That is correct that they have lived together since before I met him. They got “married” about 2 months before I met him.
He seemed very open and committed early on, almost too early. He wanted to call me his girlfriend and told me he was giving me all of him (all in for the relationship, no holding back) and would wait for me to be ready to do the same.
He believes he did nothing wrong, so he doesn’t feel he needs to prove anything. He said if I had known he was “married,” I may not have continued a relationship with him. That is probably true, but now I care so much for him and see the potential of a relationship with him.
I want to prove I am trustworthy because I am an honest person, and it bothers me that someone may think otherwise. I know I did nothing wrong, except share that intimate information, but I was under a different understanding at that time.
I don’t know if I need to get over wanting to prove myself – and get over him – and move on. I don’t know if it’s possible to repair things. I have a tendency to forgive almost anything and deny my feelings so the other person is happy. As I mentioned, it feels a tad manipulative that he doesn’t trust me still, but when I first met him, my impression was that he was the most sincere person I’d ever met.