Last october my grandmother who was very close to my mother passed away. This had a very big impact on my family especially my mom. I lived alone with my mom and sister. I understood my mother needed timw and space to grieve, but after some time she began to convert the grief into angwr and frustration and she began to abuse my sister and I emotionally and physically. I understand it was hard for her but i decided to move in with my dad in his home for a more peaceful environment. After some time my guilt began to build up as i felt i abandoned my mother. My father was also not ready to take on a teenager and as a result he would be easily angered. Things got better until recently when my dad kicked out mw and my sister. I could bw living with my mother again but i know it isnt a peaceful environment. I feel i havwno solution and i feel i am incapable of deciding on my own. I am 16 years old and neither of my parents are able to provide me with a stable environment. I dont know what to feel or think or say and i feel lost and afraid