Anita,

Hi!

Today .. I feel a sense of longing.

Not the intense kind, but I just feel super lonely, and I miss talking to Gyunnie so much.

I really do want him to be happy, I do.

But I cannot deny the feelings that I miss him, and I want to be with him. So badly.

There are millions of guys out there, yet why do I keep feeling like it is going to be hard to find someone better?

It hurts me, I do not want to hang on to him, and I want to smile, I want to be happy, not because of my current situation, but because I found real love in someone and he taught me an important lesson.

A lesson worth remembering and smiling over, you know?

I know that it is in the past, and it does not exist anymore but why cant I control my own feelings?

Yes, it is my pain that I am feeling, not Gyunnie`s.

And I have to put the focus back on me, not him.

But sometimes it can be really hard to remember those advices.

-Monica