I didn’t plan it. It just happened. Friday night I ended my 2 year relationship with my bf. It was so hard and I wish I would have handled it better. To start, we’re complete opposites. But we still had things in common. I loved his energy and charm. We fell for each other hard and very fast. The first year was great. But soon after we started to fight more. Before Christmas we were fighting a lot. Instead of loving his energy, I got annoyed. I slowly felt myself becoming emotionally distant. The past few months he’s been going through hard times, and knowing that is making me feel worse about ending it. I know he loved me, and I love him. He was making some effort to make things better, but I didn’t feel it was fair if I couldn’t bring myself to put in the same effort. Also, some things happened involving him that broke my trust, and I was struggling to try and repair it and trust him again. He’s not a bad person and I want what’s best for him. He’s become codependent, pessimistic and depressed the last few months of our relation due to things he’s going though. I want him to help himself, but I don’t feel like he wanted it as much as I wanted it for him.

I know 2 days is still fresh. And emotions are going to be high. He feels angry, hurt, and betrayed. I feel intense regret for ending it when I feel like he needed me the most. I just don’t know if I made the right decision.