Thank you for responding to my post.  Mark, I am going to therapy now and it is helping. Anita I am very proud of my children and how they are in college creating a life for themselves. I just never imagined being single at this age. My ex and I talked and planned on doing so many things after the kids where grown and now all those dreams are gone.  Yes, I can do them alone, but it’s not the same.  I don’t miss him, but miss doing things with someone.