Hi all, thank you for your thoughtful kindness.  I see no need to “go into” what is going on other than to say I seem to be on my own path of ego death.  I am thrilled to see this in my research.  I have struggled with PTSD and depression since childhood (now 58) am finally working with a therapy team (6 years lol) but the work I do alone is far more beneficial.  Therapy does provide guidance however.  Without it, would I have discovered Eckhart Tolle?   Probably… but who would I discuss his words with?  So all in all, since posting, my research has led me to the 7 steps of ego death and I believe I have, on my own, reached stage 4 and I understand now the path I am on.  What a thrilling ride I am on!  Further thoughts and discussion appreciated!