Yes. I associate failure with being a let down. I have never been ambitious in nature but often find myself chasing things I don’t need and I guess that’s from being told that I must do so. It makes me feel like a failure when I disappoint those around me but I have to now distance others idea of happiness and findmy own.

But honestly I don’t think I’m meant to have a passion. I don’t feel that way about anything. I’m most happy when I’m by myself and calm. So, I guess in a way the only thing I must absolutely do, I do – like going to work. I wonder if this is wrong, that there is nothing I want to work towards. I’m working to do a good job each day but not really aiming for a promotion. I just hate the concept of growth = acquiring more things. Have you ever faced such a thing? They say you should be better tomorrow than today but in what aspect and what should the end goal be? I have no desires and this often makes me feel isolated like I have nothing that I want to achieve. I also feel extremely lonely and depressed if I have to fight for things “I must get” but don’t care about . I feel like my life has no where to go. How should I grow? Where am I going wrong?