Sometimes the devil makes you come down to your knees. Maybe it’s better to stay that way and let him pass.

All my life I’ve spent on self improvement but when the time of karma showed up, I did not pass my test, ended up injuring myslef and several people. I have no clue how simple things can get so big at times, maybe that’s why it’s called karma 😀

I want to believe that this devil is a part of God. i can’t accept the fact that God did not protect me. How could God make me do something or not give me forethought as to how to handle it. Anyway, my arrogance and wretchedness got shattered i guess. I am different person now then I used to be but the pain is too much. Why does the universe not teach through Love?

The wise learn to introspect and heal, burn their Karma’s in meditation. For ppl like me,the bad stuff come into the outer world, and for some years I keep running outside to fix it but then I realise I have to fix it within me. Not that if it comes out into the outer world, it’s a bad thing but the suffering is manifold. I truly understand samsara (the cycle of birth and death) now. I do not want to come back to this earthly realm ever. It’s a terrible place filled with suffering, heartache, disease, old age, delusion, devils play.

I’ll try to be positive atleast till the time I am alive, for my own sanity :D. I have a bad habit thinking about how bad the world is..

I’ll look up Tao. I ve heard of it. Very new to me though. I practice breath meditation and Kriya Yoga technique. Tough job my Guru has undertaken. I wish my Guru all the best. I am not sure how be will chnage my coal behavior into diamond 😀

The important thing i learnt from your message is, not to take things too seriously. This has been my biggest lesson. I used to be a perfectionist,even in relationships and I hurt ppl around me with my beliefs. I ll take life as it comes And try to be less serious..

Thank you for taking the time out to reply Peter. I really appreciate it. Have a lovely day 🙂