Hi Anita,

Thanks for your comments. When I wrote “my heart was in the right place,” it means I believe I am a good person at heart, even if I’ve done things to belie that image at times.

And yes, I still do have a huge fear of being judged or having my personal information used against me. It has happened numerous times, and each time destroys my trust a little bit more.

I am very selective about who I tell my feelings to. Even with people I trust though I tend to close that communication because I feel like a broken record, talking about similar feelings over and over. Just like my feelings over lack of purpose – that continues to bother me on a daily basis. Honestly, some days it completely consumes, me, and leaves me exhausted by the end of the day. I get home and can’t even speak much at all because I am so tired of the thoughts rattling around in my brain all day… it becomes difficult to want to say them out loud. And some thoughts I either want to keep to myself or don’t want to admit to. So when I’m asked what I’m thinking, I don’t even know where to begin.