Hi Anita,

Thank-you for writing back to me, It means a lot. I was really nervous when I was writing it. I was in a relationship with a police officer, and yes he was abusing me. Even though we aren’t dating anymore, he still abuses me. What does it mean to me that he’s a police officer? It means he has so much power over me. I tried to report it once and he intervened and I came close to being charged with mischielf for what he called ‘making a false report’. 🙁  He has that much power. Now I can never report him and even if I found some other way to report hiim, I’m too terrified to do so.

I am getting some assistance from two professionals in the community, they come to my home and I spoke with one of them about it. I didn’t share much though  They don’t even know it’s a police officer. These 2 people aren’t therapists but they want to help me. The one I saw yesterday reccomended this site/forum to me. I know he mentioned reading some of them. I kind of wish he’d see this and ask me more about what’s going on with me. I’m way too afraid to tell him that the person hurting me is a police officer and that there’s actually more than one person. I know this must sound stupid. I feel so embarassed. (If the person that suggested this to me were to read this, and think.. hey maybe that’s the young lady I’m trying to help.. if he brought up some of what I shared last night here, then I’d know it’s safe to tell him) Does that make sense?

I don’t really have anywhere to go that I feel comfortable and safe. My only option is the shopping mall I go to near my home. The security there know I’m having some kind of problems, they helped me one time when I went there after I was hurt one time. They gave me a ice pack and let me sit in a quiet room, the room is usually used for mom’s who are breastfeeding. I’m allowed to go there if I need somewhere to go that’s quiet and safe. The head of security knows something is happening to me, but I didn’t tell her but I think she knows.

Thanks Anita